Crying before 10am because 2020





10/27/20 9:10am

Jason :
Hey Honey!!! How u?
U feeling a little better?

Adrian :
Getting there.
You?

Jason :
I’m okay. Just okay. I have so much anxiety and anger over the election at the moment….
And just “meh” in general.
But truthfully I have nothing to complain about.

Adrian :
I hear ya.
Did you vote yet?
I voted yesterday

Jason :
Not yet. Going to vote on Election Day. More convenient for us since our house is less than a mile from the school which is our regular precinct
Congratulations!!!

Adrian :
Thanks I guess.
I wished there would have been a candidate I liked though
Then I got home and did some writing
http://genderfun.blogspot.com/2020/10/my-not-so-happy-earlier-years.html
I think I’m finally ready to leave all that pain behind
It’s been an emotionally exhausting year

Jason :
I can’t imagine the emotions running through you…. I saw the post yesterday on FB and it just broke my heart. It’s always so easy to assume someone is doing well, because on what you see on the exterior. But you never know the struggles people face inside, which are the most overwhelming because we live in a society that teaches us to “suck it up.”

Adrian :
I’ve been suppressing the emotions for so long. I just had to release them.
I’m thankful to have supportive people in my life like you guys

Jason :
Awwweeeeee

Adrian :
šŸ¤—

Jason :
We are here for you honey!!!

Adrian :
ty

Jason :
You are a bright light in this dim world!
Your star needs to shine!!!!

Adrian :
Ok ok ok enough. I don’t need to cry this early in the morning

Jason :
However…. Something just dawned on me…
Oh sorry…
LOL

Adrian :
What dawned on you?

Jason :
I don’t want to open up any wounds…. But I wonder if the name “Amnesia” comes from a desire to repress the past? Now I’m being Freud.
I’m sorry.
I don’t mean it in a negative way…. It’s just that we often do things subconsciously ….

Adrian :
Oh Amnesia was TOTALLY a coping tool
For many reasons
To explore my gender and sexuality
To face my fears of public speaking
To not have to deal with the past
Putting on a mask was liberating
Hello the name is AMNESIA,
What better way to forget one’s troubles?

Jason :
And you know what’s amazing…. And I’m teary eyed now (like you were when you were listening to me talk about my mom)….
You have totally helped SOOOOOOO many people with their struggles.

Adrian :
Helping them was really what I needed to help myself
It’s always easier to help others than oneself

Jason :
You have been a guiding light to so many…. And it’s awesome that these very people you have helped, have also helped you, too. šŸ˜Š

Adrian :
Ok ok ok enough
Too much
No crying
It’s not even 10am

Jason :
Okay okay okay….

Adrian :
Don’t you have to be at work?

Jason :
I need to stop crying.
But I’m crying tears of happiness for you

Adrian :
Thank you

Jason :
lol

Adrian :
Now drink some water
I love you guys

Jason :
❤️. love you too!!!!!

Adrian :
Winter is going to be challenging
But we’ll get through it

Jason :
Si, si se puede!!!!

Adrian :
Have a great day kiddo

Jason :
You too Chice!!!! šŸ˜Š
Turn these clouds outside into SUNSHINE!!!!!
And then make it rain! lol

Adrian :

 

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